Sue the second time I saw you clearly after you died I was dancing
Again in my movements and in my thoughts I was reaching up to you and quietly, softly gently
There you were
More than five years have passed
You were farther away this time but your light and love were even brighter and I saw you
saw the reality you had become in my consciousness in the distance more clearly
It is weeks later now I was awake long before the sun would come around to this part of earth where the body encompassing my thoughts
still lives
I woke several hours ago and read about the physics that makes flight possible
and then to try to sleep again I put the words aside lay down again and visualized seeking to ungrasp all thoughts and meditate to a state of blissful nothingness and sleep
In the beginning soft images and revelations of the miracles I had been reading about and wanting to understand completely in my muscles and nerves as well as my mind
actual images flowing past me with my existence as a simple mind floating in thoughts emotions visions created by my soft intentions of letting go and experiencing knowledge and then no knowledge directly
folded into the substance of life and awareness of being awake
relaxed and quiet
I saw the physics of emotions
what causes their lift and drag
no words the truth simply flowed and swirled around me
I began to pray in a new way understanding love and anger in a new way
and I moved through my prayer in a new way
and the way peacefulness appeared reminded me that I had seen you again
dancing is my most innocent prayer the easiest way I can become a child escape experience and just be alive again
and I got out of bed silently and effortlessly dressed in warm clothes and came downstairs to write this poem for you
remembering how I had seen you again
the moon just past full greeted me as I began to write
reflection of your light
the tender pink glow of day’s beginning smiles at me now
Thank you, Sue for letting me see you again