as she drove to the meeting
which she did not think
would turn out well
she was thinking
Go with love
these are people
I’ve worked with
People I love
and she was calm
she had already
figured out
actually her gut
had figured out
and she had listened
It’s not about the money
it was about her life
and how she just
could not
do it any more
lose her life
that way
editing editing
hour after hour
not let anyone down
make a special
gem
for each one
no matter how long
it took
no matter
how much it took
out of her life
she was exhausted
and her husband
who adored her
wanted her
to not do that
to herself
anymore
and when everything
shut down
and she had a little time
to just
be
and some time
to see
she didn’t want
to do that to herself
either
she was done
new life
she said
here I come
when she got there
her heart was open
and she was calm
Go with love
and these people
her friends
who were trying
to start the paper
back up again
needed her
but she was calm
and she was ready
knew the truth
her gut knew
She was ready
Everyone there understood
no one else could do
what she could do
and had done
for so long
she knew so many people
was loved
by so many
for her hard work
good spirit
and newspaper gems
it was a lot of pressure
from her friends at the paper
her friends who wanted her
to take care of herself
and every one else
most of all
from herself
but there was another part
of the equation
which was who she was
now
and what she could
and would
and couldn’t
and would no longer
try
to do
and she brought that
simply
and with love
to the meeting
too
and because of the way
she was
when she came
to talk to them
they relaxed
and saw her
the way she saw them
and they listened
It’s all the hours
she said
I can’t keep working
all these hours
and if I take
my old job back
and I still have
to do it all myself
I will do my best
to do it no matter what
to not let anyone down
and I can’t
I’m not going to do
that to myself
any more
so I can’t take the job
and they listened
they’d never known
everything she did
just knew that somehow
she got it all done
magically filled 12 to 16
pages during the
busy summer months
did whatever was needed
but it wasn’t magic
it was her
editing editing
hour after hour
not let anyone down
make a special
gem
for each one
no matter how long
it took
now they heard
started to understand
and said
how can we make
this work
and it was simple
people have to
understand
and help
each other
and people
have to take time
to listen to
their guts
their hearts
and their friends
hear what
is most important
and know
what they can
and can not
do