as she drove to the meeting which she did not think would turn out well
she was thinking
Go with love
these are people I’ve worked with
People I love
and she was calm
she had already figured out
actually her gut had figured out and she had listened
It’s not about the money
it was about her life and how she just could not
do it any more
lose her life that way
editing editing hour after hour not let anyone down
make a special gem for each one no matter how long it took
no matter how much it took
out of her life
she was exhausted and her husband who adored her wanted her
to not do that to herself
anymore
and when everything shut down and she had a little time to just
be
and some time to see
she didn’t want to do that to herself either
she was done
new life she said here I come
when she got there her heart was open and she was calm
Go with love
and these people her friends who were trying to start the paper back up again needed her
but she was calm and she was ready knew the truth
her gut knew
She was ready
Everyone there understood
no one else could do what she could do and had done for so long she knew so many people was loved by so many for her hard work good spirit and newspaper gems
it was a lot of pressure from her friends at the paper her friends who wanted her to take care of herself and every one else most of all
from herself
but there was another part of the equation which was who she was
now
and what she could and would and couldn’t and would no longer try to do
and she brought that simply and with love
to the meeting too
and because of the way she was when she came to talk to them they relaxed and saw her the way she saw them
and they listened
It’s all the hours she said I can’t keep working all these hours and if I take my old job back and I still have to do it all myself I will do my best to do it no matter what to not let anyone down
and I can’t I’m not going to do that to myself any more
so I can’t take the job
and they listened
they’d never known everything she did just knew that somehow she got it all done magically filled 12 to 16 pages during the busy summer months did whatever was needed
but it wasn’t magic it was her
editing editing hour after hour not let anyone down make a special gem for each one no matter how long it took
now they heard started to understand and said
how can we make this work
and it was simple
people have to understand and help each other
and people have to take time to listen to their guts their hearts and their friends
hear what is most important
and know
what they can and can not do