ever since he died I have become more alive
the sword of his death pierced me and the blood became my poetry and it flowed and flowed and flows
and the blood of all I was and would become flowed and flowed
the blood of all I was taught me what it meant to be alive
the blood of all I was became the blood of who I am now
taught me what life was and is
I did not want to know such painful news but now I do
and
ever since he died I have become more alive more alive to life and everyone around me
more alive to death and everyone around me
more alive to who I really am and who we really are
ever since he died I have become more alive to me and you
and us all of us who are here and all of us who are still here
now I know the sword pierced me
to make me whole