Sue
the second time
I saw you
clearly
after you died
I was dancing
Again in my movements
and in my thoughts
I was reaching up to you
and quietly, softly
gently
There you were
More than five years
have passed
You were farther
away
this time
but your light
and love were
even brighter
and I saw you
saw the reality
you had become
in my consciousness
in the distance
more clearly
It is weeks later now
I was awake long before the sun
would come
around
to this part of earth
where the body
encompassing
my thoughts
still lives
I woke several hours ago
and read about the physics
that makes flight possible
and then
to try to sleep again
I put the words aside
lay down again
and visualized
seeking to ungrasp
all thoughts
and meditate
to a state of blissful
nothingness
and sleep
In the beginning
soft images
and revelations of the miracles
I had been reading about
and wanting to understand
completely
in my muscles and nerves
as well as my mind
actual images flowing
past me
with my existence as a simple mind
floating in
thoughts emotions visions
created by my soft intentions
of letting go
and experiencing knowledge
and then no knowledge
directly
folded into the substance
of life and awareness
of being awake
relaxed
and quiet
I saw the physics
of emotions
what causes
their lift and drag
no words
the truth simply flowed
and swirled
around me
I began to pray
in a new way
understanding
love and anger
in a new way
and I moved through my prayer
in a new way
and the way peacefulness
appeared
reminded me that I had seen you
again
dancing is my most innocent
prayer
the easiest way I can become
a child
escape experience
and just be alive
again
and I got out of bed
silently and effortlessly
dressed in warm clothes
and came downstairs
to write this poem
for you
remembering
how I had seen you
again
the moon
just past full
greeted me
as I began to write
reflection of your light
the tender pink glow
of day’s beginning
smiles at me
now
Thank you, Sue
for letting me see you
again